Please

I told you that the term "us" is a bad idea and you responded asking me why. When I told you the reason you were quick to shake it off like you didn't want to hear it. And when I said that the thought of us being together in one place, at one time is a bad idea  was just a thought you said "yeah" like you knew that I didn't mean it. Because I didn't. Well in some ways I did. You proved to me tonight that you want me in your life. You didn't say anything like "okay then lets not see each other". Instead you told me and reassured me that the decision is mine. To be honest I wanted you to say something like "I want to see you, to be with you, and to spend time with you". I desperately want and need to hear that. But what can I say? We won't always get what we want. So let me put this straight...I think that maybe we should just stop. Just stop fooling each other. We have done nothing but play games and quite frankly I am so tired of guessing what will happen next.  Let's just stop pretending. Please just let me go, as much as you need me...I can't stay beside you forever. I can't run back to you every time something goes wrong. Please let go of me so that we can both move forward with our life. So that in the future if we ever see each other we can look back and laugh. As I'm writing this I am wondering if maybe my idea of us not working out is a bad idea. What if destiny wants us together? What if I regret what I am about to do next? My life has so many what ifs and regrets, please help me see that what I want to do and say is the right thing. Please....